March 24, 2008
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
When God formed me, He knew that I would be a person with a plan. As a young woman, I wondered about God’s plan for my life, but to find this perfect plan seemed too difficult. So I made my plans and began to work them, but we all know that life seldom follows our plans.
Trigeminal neuralgia put a halt to most of my plans. It forced me to live life only one moment at a time; the thought of tomorrow was something my mind could no longer grasp. When the Lord took this illness from me, people asked me what I was going to do next. I wasn’t prepared for the question because I had become accustomed to living one day at a time.
I still needed two classes and an internship to finish my master’s, and the decision to finish my degree kept me busy for quite a while. When I finished my internship, I wondered where God would lead me next. What was the plan?
I thought about how an architect draws a plan. It has to be in place before site work and construction can begin. The plan must be drawn before construction can begin. An inspection occurs before the building is ready to be occupied. How long would it take for this temple named Kathy to be ready?
I continued to prepare for my future. I began the ordination process, and I completed the application to sit for the certified rehabilitation counselor exam. I wondered if these things would ever gel together, and I longed to work again. It was a time to wait, a time to pray, and a time to trust God.
A few weeks ago, I began working for an organization that assists individuals with facial pain. This was my hope for my future, to bring comfort to people who are dealing with the type of pain that was once a part of my daily life.
I cannot remember too well what I had planned for my life before trigeminal neuralgia came to steal and destroy. I just know that what I have now just has to be better. What the Lord has given me is the best plan, better than one I could have designed on my own.
Have you read With Great Mercy?