January 26, 2007
And I will bring the blind by a way that they knew not; I will lead them in paths that they have not known: I will make darkness light before them, and crooked things straight. These things will I do unto them, and not forsake them. Isaiah 42:16.
I just have to take some time to praise God for the wonderful internship He has provided for me. What a blessing it is to talk to people who really need someone to understand pain and circumstances caused by facial pain. I remember needing someone who had experienced it, and for a long time I met no one who had encountered this pain.
During phone conversations with people who are experiencing distress, I often want to reach out and to touch the hand of the person to whom I am speaking. Each voice I remember well, and I often mention their circumstances later in the day when I go to the Lord in prayer. It is not unusual to hear people in pain talk of their faith in God's ability to see them through or to take the pain from them. Although I cannot extend my hand to them as we talk, God's hand is always reaching for them. It also reaches for me, reaches for us all, no matter what happens to be the nature our needs.
People with facial pain share many of the same needs. The causes of trigeminal neuralgia are not clear, but some things caused by trigeminal neuralgia are obvious. Many people feel as though their lives have been stolen. They often have difficulty get their employers or co-workers to understand their plight. Social activities become increasingly difficult, and anxiety becomes part of every day life. Fear of the pain lurks, sometimes even on the good days.
I want to thank God for the good days. In November, my husband and I went to Minnesota to have my bite aligned once more. This time it seemed so simple. Dr. Spahl made the adjustment quickly and with confidence. The pain level in my jaw and head began to descend. Soon Bob and I were enjoying the winter weather of St. Paul. Once again God had made a crooked path straight for me. The path was full of pain, but the fact that I have been healed of trigeminal neuralgia was always clear.
The Lord has led me through another unknown path. Because I have had to commute for my internship, I needed a church that was in my home town. I had commuted to a church my uncle pastors for several years. God provided an answer for me, and I have become part of a local congregation. Although my internship is in another city, I am home for Bible study and Sunday services. I am anchored by the love this congregation has for God. I am thankful for the light God has created in what once seemed to be darkness.
To venture from my home after being ill so many years was a frightening concept. I wondered if I would succeed. God has been thankful, making a desire into a reality. Through His grace, I will triumph as I cross the finish line of obtaining my master's degree.
Have you read With Great Mercy?